what's in a name?

13 Oct

Hi!

Thanks for the support and encouraging comments on yesterday’s post.  Honestly, after I hit publish last night I laid awake in bed for awhile feeling very unsure about my post.  I really do try to always keep it real here, but being open is sometimes freaking hard!

I just don’t want to seem like a complainer, but guys…sometimes life is hard.  On those days it’s kind of a challenge to find a balance between staying positive and uplifting while still being real.

And to be perfectly honest, there is nothing that drives me more crazy here in blogland than when people come across as perfect on their blogs.  While I didn’t actually address this issue yesterday, it did come up in the comments.  It seems that most of you feel the same way.  Let’s just lay it all out there – there have been times when I’ve considered no longer reading some blogs because they just seem too perfect.  And whether they are perfect or whether they’re not – it really doesn’t matter – it is a negative force in my life to read about it everyday.  It’s extremely difficult to avoid the comparison trap when all you read each day is the perfection in people’s lives.  I have to constantly keep myself in check with this issue – finding myself trying to measure up to someone else’s style, recipes, photos or exercise routine.

And speaking of exercise routines, this would probably be an excellent time to make known that the husband and I will no longer be running our November half marathon. You know, the one that was originally supposed to be a full marathon?  After a lot of contemplating and discussion, we’ve decided to step back from racing for now.

With trying to get our own business off the ground + Jon working full-time and me almost full-time, there really isn’t enough time for training.  We tried to make it work, but sleep was the main thing being sacrificed.  We try every night to get in bed before 11pm, but when there are deadlines to meet sometimes it’s just not an option.  And seeing as how getting adequate sleep is one of the most important parts of long distance running, it isn’t healthy or smart for us to keep pushing it.

Being the perfectionist that I am, this decision was really difficult for me at first.  And to bring this full-circle, I realized that a lot of it was due to comparing myself to other bloggers. When you see countless bloggers running so many miles a week, it can make you feel like a failure if you’re not doing it too.  In my quest to defeat perfectionism though, I was able to step back and realize that my life is not the same as anybody else’s…and therefore I have to make the best decision for my body and for Jon.

Besides, I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this, but the husband designed the branding for the entire race – from the participant’s guide down to the finish banner.  So, we’ll be running all over the place on race day, getting photos for our website (and cheering on all the runners!). I’m super stoked about it – I love races! Although I know I’ll be wishing we were running, I’m glad we’ll be going to support everyone and our business!

So that’s that.

Now that we’re through all the heavy stuff – let’s move on to the food!

Breakfast this morning was a green monster, per the usual.  Oh, green monster, how did I ever live without you??

I spent the morning working on my yoga class for tonight and trying to get iPhoto and Flickr to be friends.  The story of my life.  They are currently on speaking terms, though we still have a loooong way to go.

About 10:30 I got so hungry, so I heated up one of my favorite whole wheat pitas and had a big blob of creamy hummus for dipping!

So, if you follow me on twitter, you may know that I had a major life experience this morning.

I lived through my first earthquake!

You have to understand, Oklahoma does not get earthquakes. Like, ever. I never would have dreamed that I’d ever feel one.

So, picture this.  I was sitting on my couch with Olive looking up idioms for tutoring students and dealing with flickr when all of a sudden I heard a sound like the entire house rattled.  I actually didn’t feel anything, but it was such a strange noise – I literally thought to myself “that sounded like how I’ve heard earthquakes described.”

I glanced at Olive to see if she heard it, and she was sitting up with her little ears perked looking around.  However, here is a prime example of a downside of working from home.  There are no other adults around to confirm that you’re not crazy when crazy stuff happens!

So what did I do?  The only logical thing – I went on about my business and forgot about it.

About 30 minutes later, I went to check my phone and realized I had about 5 missed calls and 2 texts from the husband, and a text from my mom, wondering if I’d felt the earthquake and making sure I was okay. ha!  I couldn’t believe it.

Anyway, apparently it was a 4.3 on the scale and was felt all the way from north Texas to Arkansas and everywhere in between.

With all that excitement I completely forgot about lunch, and suddenly I looked up and I had 15 minutes till I needed to leave for tutoring!  Considering everything I still needed to do before leaving, I knew a lunch on the go was in order!  So, I whipped up a brown rice cake sandwich with natural peanut butter and half a banana.  It was delish.  But somewhat messy.  Have you ever tried to bite into a rice cake sandwich? Unfortunately I failed at getting a picture in all the madness.  I lived through an earthquake – can you blame me?!?

By the time I got though with all my tutoring appointments and taught my yoga class I was starving for dinner.  Enter leftovers of my favorite meal.

cooked spinach, vegetarian refried beans, rotel tomatoes and vegan (Daiya) cheese wrapped in a whole wheat tortilla a doused in spicy enchilada sauce.  With a side of baked corn chips (corn tortillas) and homemade guacamole.

Dessert was simple.

two little oranges (only a portion is in the picture)

All in all I’d say it was a banner day – a nice way to balance out yesterday methinks:)

Oh, one last side note.  I’ve told you guys how much I love meeting with international students, right?  Well, I love it more and more everyday.  Hanging out with them is so refreshing + I think I learn more than they do!  Awhile back I mentioned one of my students, Nada, who is super sweet but also beyond talkative and a bit high maintenance.  Well, she really threw me for a loop on Monday.  We were chatting along just like normal when all of a sudden she said “blah, blah, blah…when the little one comes.”

Say what?!

“Little one?” I asked.

“Oh, yeah…I’m expecting. Did I not tell you that?  I’m due in January.”

“Um negative on that.  I would remember if you had told me that.  I’ve been meeting with you for weeks – how can I not know you are pregnant?? So, is it a boy or a girl?” I asked.

“It’s a girl.”

“Aww, how sweet (beginning to get over my initial shock at this point). So what are ya going to name her?”

“Well, I have a couple of names in mind, but one I’m really leaning toward….Lupus.”

“Ahem. Excuse me?”

“Lupus.  That’s what I’m going to name her.”

So, I then had to gently explain to my sweet little Egyptian student that Lupus might not be the best choice.  I mean, sure it’s cute and all…but oh the pain it will cause for that poor child!

I felt bad to shoot her down, but I also felt it my duty to shelter the baby from a lifetime of humiliation.

Oh the joy of international students:) And I can say that because I was one.

Now that I’ve sufficiently talked your ears off!  I’ll be signing off.  I’ll see you all tomorrow!

G’night!

P.S. I can only imagine the google searches that will come forth due to this post!

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17 Responses to “what's in a name?”

  1. Amy B @ Second City Randomness October 14, 2010 at 6:09 am #

    Sorry about having to drop out- but you’re right. You know what’s best for you and that’s important!

    I heard about the earthquake yesterday via twitter! So random!

  2. Amanda @ Vegacious October 14, 2010 at 7:01 am #

    I can relate to this post!!! I have really backed of from reading some of those seemingly perfect blogs. After this summer, I decided not to blog much about my exercise. I felt too much pressure to measure up to others. Well written!

    • candice October 14, 2010 at 9:33 pm #

      Thanks, friend. Good to know I’m not the only one who falls into that trap! Good for you for making changes and doing what’s best for YOU:)

  3. Heather (Where's the Beach) October 14, 2010 at 7:52 am #

    Girl you are spot on! While you don’t want to read downer posts all the time, you don’t want to read fake ones either. I think you can sort of tell too when someone is genuine. Life can just outright suck some days and it’s ok to say so. When you pretend it’s perfect, you’re lying to yourself first off. Yes, power of positive thinking and all that, but sometimes you need to figure out what’s getting you down in order to get back up.

    We’ve been having lots of earthquakes here – about 40 mins from where I live. Kind of crazy.

    • candice October 14, 2010 at 9:35 pm #

      I totally agree. There should be no shame in having a bad day or struggling with a certain issue. I think a lot of us struggle with the same issues anyway, and it’s so nice to have a support system and people who understand:)

      It’s kind of freaking me out that places that don’t typically have earthquakes are having them all of a sudden!

      • Heather (Where's the Beach) October 15, 2010 at 8:18 am #

        I think having a bunch of smaller quakes is better than one big one though. Like a slow release of the energy. Or that’s my theory 😉

  4. Ely October 14, 2010 at 8:48 am #

    love you!

    • candice October 14, 2010 at 9:36 pm #

      love you too! And I ordered that lens – the 50mm 1.4. Thanks for the advice – you’re the best:)

  5. amber@SAHM's musings October 14, 2010 at 12:05 pm #

    Bravo! Another great post. I struggle w/perfectionism all.the.time. I can totally relate!

    On another note: I totally felt the earthquake and my whole house shook. Granted, I didn’t know what it was but I felt it. Thought it might be a bomb (I heard the downtown bomb when I was in highschool). My mom finally called and asked if I felt the earthquake. It was unnerving to say the least.

    • candice October 14, 2010 at 9:38 pm #

      Thanks:) I think it’s so good to get it out there in the open so we can all relate to each other even better.

      And yes, the earthquake was a bit unnerving. I’ve heard other people say that about thinking it might be a bomb. And I remember when the OKC bombing happened, the ceiling tiles in my classroom at school vibrated. I guess in that case we can be really thankful it was an earthquake.

  6. Tina @ Faith Fitness Fun October 14, 2010 at 12:14 pm #

    I’ve never been in an earthquake. I can tell you I probably wouldn’t have handled it quite so nonchalantly. LOL

    And I think its GREAT you are doing what works for you. Sometimes taking a step back is needed and we have to keep the bigger picture in mind. Funnily enough, this is something I was thinking about earlier today and plan on posting about tomorrow morning. Great minds think alike.

    Also, I appreciate the realness. I too get annoyed with bloggers who never show an emotional side or struggles.

    • candice October 14, 2010 at 9:39 pm #

      haha, I tend to be a little naive about things.

      Thanks for the encouragement. I loved reading your post about this today as well. Totally blew mine out of the water:) Not that we’re comparing;) haha. Really though, it was very thought provoking.

  7. LC @ Let Them Eat Lentils October 14, 2010 at 7:08 pm #

    Good for you for doing what’s right for you right now. Plus, you’re contributing way more to the race than even the people running it!

    LOVE the international student story. I’m so glad you told her the truth. I can kind of see how the name Lupus would sound pretty if it wasn’t a horrible chronic painful disease. Maybe it would be a flower or something.

    • candice October 14, 2010 at 9:41 pm #

      Thanks for bringing out the positive side of it:)

      And you’re cracking me up with your analysis of the name Lupus. I felt bad shooting her down. I said “you know, that could be a really pretty name and it’s sweet that you chose it, but I really just can’t get past the disease part of it.” lol. I think I got through to her.

  8. Lesley Lifting Life October 14, 2010 at 8:35 pm #

    It is hard not to compare to other bloggers, I understand just what you mean!

    I think that’s why I’ve been so sporadic with blogging … back in the day I blogged every day but it was just too much and it was hard finding something “positive” to blog about every day because some days just aren’t positive and that’s life.

    Nowadays, my life doesn’t revolve around blogging … instead, I live life, have hard times and wonderful times, and then share some of it when I feel like it. It’s much better that way : ) And because of that, I totally commend you for your decision not to race anymore.

    • candice October 14, 2010 at 9:43 pm #

      Hey girl! Good for you for stepping back when you knew that’s what you needed to do. It’s difficult to find that balance, but it sounds like you’ve found your groove.

      Thanks for the affirmation – helps to know I’m not the only one!

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